Lena’s Weblog

Feels like I’m waking up to another tv-guide. Instead of heading towards something that makes me earn money, I’m sleeping ’til one/two o’clock in the afternoon. I don’t believe it’s bad, though I don’t believe it’s good either. What am I going to do eventually then? I assume this is just three four weeks of freedom. I give myself a chance to feel free and a chance to be spontanious. Am I? Nope. Not at all, or, I actually got myself call a friend yesterday. That’s that, my little spontanious adventure. Bad english, offcourse! I didn’t get the highest grade in english, I never do! Always in the middle, that’s where I am, and due to my personality I wanna be on top. Like the supermodels who are skinny and everybody writes about them. That’s where I wanna be! I want to be in everyones head, thinking “oh my, Lena!”.

Please, think of me. Poor, poor, poor me! I’m graduated, I’ve got all opportunities in the world doing what I want. Poor me. This is what I’ve been dreaming for, for three years. Now I’m finally here and I’ve got no clue what so ever what to do with my life. How to spend my days. Poor me.